SACRAMENTO (CBS13) — For the first time ever, a look inside the mind of a woman accused of kidnapping and raping Jaycee Dugard.Â These letters from Nancy come from a prison pen pal, a woman who she befriended at the El Dorado County Jail.Â That pen pal wanted Nancyâs story to be told.
At first glace, youâd never know these were words from a prisoner; A friendship that started in the El Dorado County Jail, and continues with Nancy Garridoâs pen pal serving a sentence in state prison.READ MORE: 2 Juveniles Arrested After Mother, Son Found Critically Injured In Elverta
Nancyâs love for Phillip and God was a constant theme throughout her letters.
âPhillip sends me Bible studies that I truly enjoy and bring me closer to our God,â writes Nancy.
But, itâs clear Nancy knows she and Phillip will never reunite on this Earth.
âWe have a great future in Godâs Kingdom, Phil and I donât have one in this world, but Kathryn, we Phil and I keep our eyes fixed in Godâs Kingdom, there is where our future will be together,â Nancy explains.
Nancy knows the only time sheâll ever get to see Phillip is in court where they often exchange glances. But despite her realization of the rest of their lives apart, she seems hopeful, at times happy, sharing details of her time behind bars.
âThank you for the card you made me, itâs so beautiful.Â Iâm not writing nothing in it.Â Iâll send it to him. Heâll love it.Â By the way, my birthday was 7/18.Â Turned the big 55.Â Hee Hee!Â I feel like 30.Â Honestly, I continue to exercise in my cell,â she writes.READ MORE: 'Intense' Yellowjacket Activity Reported Around Sacramento Area, Vector Control Says
There are times when Nancyâs words might come back to haunt her in court.
âYouâll love Phillip as well, because weâre two peas in a pod,â Nancy says.
She later writes, âIf Phil and I had the Living God in our life 18 years ago we wouldnât be in this mess.â
Words from a woman who clearly understands how she and Phillipâs last two decades will change their lives as they know them forever: joining her pen pal Kathryn in state prison.
âIâm happy to hear Iâll be okay dokey there in Chowchilla.Â We adapt to any given situation, itâs difficult at first, Kathryn.Â Our God give me so much strength to endure my journey,â Nancy explains.
Nancy Garridoâs journey is far from over, and so are her words from jail.ÂMORE NEWS: Dispatch Audio Describes Chilling Details of Boys' Alleged Attack On Own Mother and Brother: 'He Wants To Turn Himself In'
CBS13 spoke to her attorney Stephen Tapson who says, âThere are two cycles in the life of Nancy and Phillip Garrido and Jaycee Dugard.Â After the birth of the two children they found God, and then it became a very bizarre relationship that was loving.â